“I’ve never seen any life transformation that didn’t begin with the person in question finally getting tired of their own bullshit.”
I’ve done some extensive spring cleaning and we’re only a week into the season. Now I don’t mean actual cleaning (I basically live out of suitcases…I have too many clothes…but that’s another story for a different day). I mean spiritual cleaning. I’m at that age where the people in my life right now are probably going to be in my life forever. That means there is no time to waste on relationships and friendships that aren’t fulfilling or don’t meet your expectations. I’m ready to grow up. I haven’t once gone to a party and said, “Wow, I’m so glad I went to that. I really gained a lot.” It’s taken me a while, but after finally dropping out of my sorority and having a huge music festival/show phase, I’m tired. I would rather spend quality time with close friends–without alcohol involved.
These few weeks before graduation are filled with break ups and engagements. Most of my friends are graduating this year but I have another year left (I changed my major too many times). If you follow me on Twitter, you know that I hate college. But this extra time has me feeling grateful because I have no idea what I’m going to do after college. All I know is that I’m buying a one way plane ticket from LAX to JFK and winging it. The possibilities are endless–I could work for a while then head to graduate school or simply start my own business (a dream of mine). I’m no where near ready to settle down with someone–I want to experience so much more before that. I’m in love with my independence. Can I change my Facebook relationship status to “In a Relationship with myself?”
(photographer: Chris Poplawski http://www.cpoplawski.com)